summer is going. 2 weeks by.. I cant say its flown because it hasnt. I cant say its been entirely fun either because its been more routine and bla than actual fun. the hours at work drag. i lick too many envelopes. i have ben going t the gym however. atleast my lard ass is doing something worthwhile.
other news..boys confuse me alot. even boys i used to be able to read like a book confuse me these days, and its unsettling. and by boys i mean daly mostly. he may not be confusing entirely himself, but im confusing myself and his presence isnt much help. i didnt like him. then as soon as he stopped trying and flinging himself upon me, i got frustrated. i dont know if its actual i like you why arent you talking to me anymore frustration, i want ass why arent you talking to me anymore frustration or im bored why arent you talking to me anymore frustration. he doesnt im me anymore, and i dont want to be weak and be the one to talk to him first. childish, i know... but this is the level of our relatioship. Ii cant figure out his motives. if he is waiting to see if i will get in touch with him, if he really doesnt care anymore or if he has someone else.
im psyching myself out. worst of all it doesnt even matter.
sometmes i toaly overanalyze things and people.
bla. is it 4 yet?
i need something new.